Back to work....

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, Its back to work I go~~

I will be returning to work tomorrow, unfortunately. I hate the idea of going back to work and leaving the kids. I know that no one could love or take better care of them than my Aunt Donna. As it gets closer, my anxiety is going up, which my conscious mind knows its ridiculous, but my anxiety gets worse by the day.

I'll keep everyone up to date as things go along!

Krista

Updates...

Okay---so its time for some updates, and until now I haven't had much time to do them...so, here goes.

1--Ada Grace is a complete and total daredevil. She busted her lip 1 week after we lost Henry...She was bleeding profusely from her lip, so I rushed her to the pediatrician only to find out it wasn't deep enough to stitch or glue.

2--You've seen Justin's works of art and I posted about his escape trick--so who knows what's next.

3--I got a call from Duke, one of the perinatologists called to let me know that all of the results for all of the tests were back for Henry. He was completely, totally and utterly normal. Nothing showed on any of the tests as a problem/reason for his death, so basically, the assumption is that it was a "cord accident". A few people have asked if that makes me feel any better and the simple answer is, not in the least. I guess it would be easier for my emotions to accept if there had been something wrong with him...but knowing that he was perfect in every way, just like Justin and Ada Grace makes it harder for me, really.

4--I will be returning to work next Thursday, much to my chagrin. It is going to be incredibly difficult since I've kind of gotten used to being a stay-at-home mommy the last 5 weeks. There is nothing better than waking up to my kids voices every morning. And hearing their excitement when their daddy gets home at night.

Houdini

Well--apparently Justin isn't just a budding artist but a magician as well.

This morning he woke up at 6:15 and told me he needed a new pull-up because he had peed in his (he isn't night-trained yet). I put a new one on him and he informed me that he needed to go back to bed and to sleep--I wasn't about to argue with him at that hour of the morning. I put him back in bed and tucked him back in...I also ended up falling back to sleep. Well, the next thing I knew, 45 minutes later, Ada Grace woke up. I heard a weird thumping sound downstairs, and yelled at Justin to get back up to his bedroom so we could get ready for pre-school. He yelled back up that he couldn't, he needed my help. I went flying down the stairs to see what he needed help with, and he was in the garage. Our doors don't unlock when you turn the knob, so he had locked himself in the garage. I asked him what he was doing and he said, "I'm playing out here." He was only in a pull-up, and had dumped both of our golf bags and barney's bat bag as well. He had also gotten out his Shrek tackle box and dumped the weights in the garage floor.

Needless to say, when he was at pre-school this morning, I turned his door-knob around and put the lock on the outside of the door. Now, we can lock him in his room.

Before you all freak out and get upset with me, Barney and I already have a plan for if, God-forbid, we would ever have a fire. He is responsible for getting Justin out of the house, and I am responsbile for getting Ada Grace out of the house. We also have smoke detectors in every room and monitors in the kids rooms so we can hear if they need us, or if their smoke detecors go off for some reason.

I'm beginning to believe my friend Jessica who swears that with boys, they don't have terrible twos, but rough years that are multiples of 3 (ages 3,6,9, etc). Justin at age 2 wasn't an issue---age three might be the death of me!!!

Krista

Budding Artist

It appears as though Barney and I have a budding artist on our hands.....This is what Justin did during naptime yesterday

Happy New Year

Here's hoping that this one is better than the last!!

Enjoy all the football this week!!! and GO BUCKS!!!

Krisat

Henry James

Hey everyone. I just wanted to check in and let everyone know that we are doing okay---not any better than that really. We had Henry's memorial service yesterday, and while beautiful, it was also heart-wrenching!! I am posting a poem that I found online last night that took my breath away it was so beautiful....
Since heaven has become your home
I sometimes feel that I'm alone;
And though we now are far apart
You hold a big piece of my heart
I never knew how much I'd grieve
When it was time for you to leave
Or just how much my heart would ache
From that one fragment you would take
God let this tiny hole remain,
Reminding me we'd meet again
And one day all the pain will cease
When He restores this missing piece
For Jesus heals each tiny part
That holds your memory in my heart

We have received numerous plants and things that will bloom forever if my black thumb doesn't take over. 2 of our neighbors bought us an azalea bush in henry's honor, and our dear friends Eric and Kendra sent us a beautiful rose bush as well. My aunt will be buying us whatever we wish in his honor as well, and I think I want a white Natchez Crepe myrtle. They bloom full and beautiful and have a wonderful sweet smell to them. I have also found a beautiful garden monument to put in that garden that is a baby laying on angel's wings. It will be Henry's memorial garden! I just hope I don't kill everything in it---I'm not the best at growing plants, etc.

I want to take a second to thank everyone for the care, thought, prayers and food everyone has provided to us. We really feel as though we have been lifted up and taken care of in the last week. I am on the ment physically---just not mentally yet.

I want to wish every single person a wonderful Christmas holiday with family, and a happy new year!!

KRista

Arrangements

I will be sending out an e-mail shortly, however, we will be having a memorial service for Henry at 1:00 on Saturday at our church, Fuquay Varina UMC. That's really all I know for now....I'll keep everyone posted as time goes on.

Krista