Monday, December 22, 2008

Justin's surgery update

Well--for those that didn't realize it because of my poor communication, Justin got tubes put in this morning. He was a bit cranky when he woke up from the anesthetic, but he is wide awake and doing well. He did awesome, let the doctor carry him back to the OR, and didn't even cry before the surgery.

We are going today for an ultra-sound to test for the chrosomal abnormalities for the baby. I'll post ultrasound pictures when I get home this afternoon.

Krista

Friday, November 28, 2008

The word seems to be out.....

Well--I believe that most everyone knows, but just wanted to update things here and make sure everyone stayed as up-to-date as possible.

I am now almost 10 weeks pregnant for baby #3. I am always tempted to say #4, because I still think of Henry every time I talk about being pregnant. I have been on 2 shots/day of blood thinners since immediately after finding out that I was pregnant back in October. I have had one ultra sound and was able to see the peanut's heart beat very clearly---flickering away in there at 160 beats per minute. I go back to my regular doctor for my 12 week ultrasound on December 9 for the Nuchal Fold Translucency test. This is the test where they do the testing for chromosomal abnormalities. I know a lot of people don't believe in having these tests, and it certainly won't change a thing about where I carry this baby or not. I was very thankful to have had this test with Henry because all of the results were normal. After losing him, the doctors immediately suggested that maybe there was a chromosomal abnormality, which I knew wasn't true as a result of this test. That is on December 9 at 11:30 in the morning. I am about 100% certain that this will go well, and have a good feeling about this pregnancy. I said very early on w/Henry that I was concerned and felt like something might go wrong.....I haven't had that feeling at ALL this time around. According to my last ultrasound, I am due on June 29 and the doc said they would likely schedule my c-section for June 15....which works out well as far as timing. Our last teacher work day for school is Friday, June 12, so I would have the weekend off, then deliver the next Monday.

Funny story about Justin. Most of you know that he doesn't forget a single thing that someone tells him. He still asks us about Henry and has even asked in the last few weeks when Henry will be coming to his house to stay. He has no concept of the finality of death, like most children his age. He has asked questions about living in Heaven in very general terms since last December when we told him that Henry had gone to live with Jesus. Tonight he was asking how old you had to be to get to go to heaven to live with Jesus. We explained that there wasn't a certain age, you could go at any time that Jesus needs you there, but that typically, it was people who were very old. (Bear in mindy, this discussion was happening at the dinner table while Mom, Dad, Barney and I ate left-overs and the kids ate their chicken nuggets.) He looked at us with all seriousness and said "You mean you have to be old like Poppi?" He is so funny. My dad is only 59, not terribly old in the grand scheme of things, but apparently Justin doesn't have that same perspective.

Oh, and just in case we see you somewhere, the kids DO NOT know that I am pregnant. We have decided that to try to avoid having to have the discussion about me losing another baby, we just wouldn't tell the kids about me being pregnant until after we know the sex of the baby and thus the name. Our theory on this is that if it would happen to be a boy, it may be easier for Justin to accept and understand if we gave him a name for the babl. Please don't say anything to the kids---Justin just thinks my tummy is getting fatter.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Hey---If you think that people are really researching who the president should be and reading up on their policies....check this out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGYvW-zPbNk

Krista

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

My kids are so very funny!!

Okay--so Ada Grace has taken to saying the dinner prayer after learning it at preschool. Well, one of them is the "ABC prayer" which goes like this "A B C D E F G, Thank you God for feeding me." She usually actually sings all the way through the ABC's first and gets to the prayer the 2nd time around. Well, my mom was telling me that the other day when she was getting ready to "feed" her baby doll, she knelt down, crossed her hands and sang hte ABC prayer prior to giving her the bottle.

Justin--well, again, he has learned the Pledge of Allegiance at school. I'm going to have to get it all on video because its too darn cute. He can and does say all of the words right, usually, except for one. Did you all know that the last line was "With liberty and Justin for all".

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

National Day of Remembrance

Good Evening. My post tonight is pretty somber, but important for me to share. Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day (United States)
October 15 has been proclaimed by the United States Congress as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day in the United States. Many U. S. state governors have made similar proclamations in the last two years, effectively creating two annual days for the remembrance of infant loss. In general, October 15 is set aside by many states as a day to honor babies who were miscarried, lost as the result of pregnancy complications, or lost as the result of SIDS. In this way, the special case of a stillbirth, the cause of which is quite often unknown, is differentiated from infant losses that have more specifically understood causes.

As you all know, I lost Henry 10 months and 1 day ago today. This time last year I was still in the throes of morning sickness, learning how to give myself shots and all the other wonderfully fun stuff that goes with pregnancy. I was blissfully unaware that there was such a thing as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. I was, at the time, 100% certain that at this point, October 15, 2008, I would have a 5 1/2 month old baby and our family would be complete. In a lot of ways, I wish that I was still that oblivious to the reality that is pregnancy loss. However, after losing Henry, I have had the opportunity to connect with some people in such a deep and personal way, that I will NEVER forget or take for granted. It is such a deeply personal loss, and for some reason, something that no one, unless they have been through it, seems to discuss. We received more cards than I could count that said "I know how it feels, unfortunately, I have been there. Please let me know if you need anything." Why is it, that such a HORRIBLE experience is so cloaked in secrecy?

If you know anyone who has ever lost a pregnancy, or an infant due to SIDS, please take a moment to remember the baby, as well as the parents who had to say goodbye to that precious baby. As I read in the blog of another woman who lost her baby not long after I lost Henry, this is NOT a day of mourning, but a day of remembrance. On this day, I choose to remember the few times I felt the miracle of Henry kicking me from the inside. I choose to remember that he had his daddy's eyes and chin. I choose to remember his 10 perfect fingers and 10 perfect toes. I choose to remember every single second that I got to hold my little "quarter-pounder", even though it was after he had gone to live with Jesus.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I'm employed full time again!!!

As of Monday, September 29, I will be a full-time teacher. When Ms. Patterson hired me in August, she had told me that she would likely lose her Title I money to bring me in as a co-teacher since I was also certified elementary education. That money has now come through, so I will be full-time in a few weeks. I am doing what I always dreamed of doing, and it really is the best of both worlds. I get to teach and bring in a monthly paycheck, but also get holidays and summers off with my kids. I am happier professionally than I have EVER been!!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

My Apologies

Okay, so WOW--I didn't realize it had been 3 months since I had posted on the blog...until my mom reminded me how horrible I was. I remember folks telling me that life just gets in the way sometimes, and I now know xactly wht that means.

As most people know, I quit work on May 2nd, and spent the summer as a stay-at-home mommy. My dream come true, but unfortunately, it was pretty short-lived. I had to find a job and get back to work to contribute financially to our household again. I finally found a teaching job, which I have been looking for for over 2 years. I really think that teaching is the best of both worlds. I get to be home for holidays, and summers with the kids, while also contributing financially. I am teaching music to 4th and 5th graders at Angier Elementary school on Monday, Wednesday and 1/2 day on Friday. In the next few weeks I will become full-time and help co-teach in one of the 5th grade classes. I am happier professionally than I have EVER been...since graduating from college. My principal is AWESOME and I love the people I am teaching with. The kids are great--they are at the perfect age in that they still like their teachers. I get hugs every single day from at least 1 student. NExt year, the school will include 3rd graders also, so I will be full time music, I believe.

The kids are doing GREAT!! Justin turned 4 and Ada Grace turned 2 this summer. She is talking up a storm, and has even asked a few times about using the potty. I SO hope that we don't have the struggles with potty-training her that we did with Justin. They are both in Preschool this year, 5 days/week for Justin, 3 days/week for Ada Grace. I'll have to post pictures later, because her back pack that she has to carry to school is as big as she is, but she is incredibly proud of the fact that she has one and goes to school.

Barney and I are gearing up for our last vacation, sans kids, until possibly our 10 year anniversary. We are headed to NYC for almost a week. We are going to catch a Yankees game, a Mets game (the Cubbies are playing the mets) and a broadway musical (Legally Blonde). I am incredibly excited about the Broadway show.

I'm also gearing up to take on my weight head-on. Barney bought me a treadmill, and I've walked on it 2 or 3 times at this point. But I've decided to really change my lifestyle and make a concerted effort to get this extra weight off. I'm going to be getting up and walking on the treadmill daily, and no more big macs or french fries for me!!!! As most anyone who knows me can testify, I have raised procrastination to a whole new level!! Well, I was watching Dr. Phil the other day and he said "you have to choose to change your lifestyle to get the extra weight off. Think about it this way, the next year is going to go by whether you are doing it or not, so do you still want to be overweight this time next year? or would you rather lose up to 100 pounds by this time next year." Well, the answer is, I have 100 pounds to lose, and I can't keep putting it off until this or that or the other thing happens....I just need to do it and stick to it!! So---here I am, saying that this time next year, I will not weigh more than 155 pounds---I just have to make a concerted effort to stick to my new lifestyle, especially avoiding fast food, and getting up an hour early every morning to walk on the treadmill.

Because I am making this concerted effort to change my lifestyle, I have decided to write down a schedule to stick to until I get used to it!! As a result, a number of things that I have let fall by the wayside (like blogging) will be put on the schedule to make sure I don't forget about it again. So, I'm going to be trying to remember to blog every weekend.

Sorry for the absence---I'll try to be sure it doesn't happen again!

krista